Angry as Regret
A sign in the kitchen of my employer reads,
Silence means you’re okay with what’s going on.
Fag rings out as common in conversation
as poor syntax. Like the second after a car wreck,
quiet grows a choked throat of cold marble.
Demons strengthen with waiting – a diagnosis
in transit. Words, naked as bile, hover
like wounded smoke. Dust falls from moths' wings,
as loud as my conscience. Brains wrinkle
with each book, flower and remark.
Test results, positive. Silence – proof
genocide is working.
This poem originally appeared in Danse Macabre - Stonewall Issue. It was also anthologized in Resilience: Stories, Poems, Essays, Words for LGBT Teens and is included in Colin's first full-length collection of poetry, The Mattress Parlor (Scribble Fire Press, 2011). In late 2013, "Angry as Regret" was anthologized again in DM Stonewall ~ An Anthology of the pink Macabrely (Hammer and Anvil Books).